I am still here and still alive.
Nothing really new to report or talk about, I am happy with my life being on the boring side right now.
I am leaving my family this afternoon for the next 2 days to head to Toronto for Step training this weekend. I am going to miss my family but I am looking forward to learning something new and occupying my thoughts and mind for the next little while.

Hopefully I will have the energy and drive to post again after I return, no one hole their breath. I am returning right before our release weeks at Goodlife and will be running full swing. Oh to torture the body, wouldn't want my job any different.

I have decided that I will not stop blogging. I don't want to leave my blog on the depressing note down swing that it has been on lately.
I have no news to share, no feelings to talk about, and nothing in general to share.

I am just trying to live life one day at a time.
I will be back when I have something upbeat and interesting to say.

update

Yesterday morning I needed to go in for an ultrasound because my doctor didn't think that my uterus was totally cleared out. I got a call from my doctor's office yesterday afternoon to find out that not everything is gone but is right at the edge of my uterus and looks like it will makes it's way out really soon. As for right now I don not need a D&C ( * insert happy dance, or as happy as I get), I am supposed to wait it out for a couple more weeks to see what happens.

Thank you for every one's thoughts, everyday is hard, everyday presents new challenges all I can do is keep breathing.

New Post

I have not posted since the beginning of January, do I have things to say? So many things, so little drive to actually sit down and write. I wounder what is the point, why put my feelings into words, what does it really matter?
Right now as I sit here I wonder if this is a new beginning post to kick off more entrees on the blog or is it a farewell post to let everyone know what has been going on and say my good byes?

Anyone have any ideas?

My life in a nut shell - January to present

I have completed my Newbody and BodyAttack training, I have sent in my video on both and passed both. I am now a certified instructor with Goodlife fitness.
On Dec 27- Jan 1 we were in Las Vegas with Evan's family for Christmas. It was busy, crazy, relaxing and wonderful all at the same time. It was great to spend time with family catching up and letting our children play together.

On January 4th Evan and I found out that we were expecting our third baby, due on September 15 2009. We were excited and nervous at the same time. I was approved by my doctor to keep teaching right up until my due date. I had a very rough go in the first couple weeks, very nauseous and teaching was interesting. I was exhausted all the time and huffing and puffing by the end of the warm up in my classes. Lets just say the members knew what was going on very soon. I think it was out by the time I hit 8 weeks, I was also starting to show a little bit. Slightly bummed out for showing so soon but my doctor said that it was because I was lean and have lower body fat. Also all women show at different times.

On the last Monday in February I was teaching a class with another instructor and had crazy energy, she looked at me and all she had to say was welcome back. I was 12 weeks at that point and thought that I was seeing the end of my morning sickness and intense fatigue. Sunday March 1 I started bleeding really badly and went to the ER, after a long wait and an even longer wait in a room every inch of me was checked. I was told my hormone levels were great and all looked okay, I was sent home after 10 hours and told to come back early Monday morning for an ultra sound.
On Monday morning Evan and I said good bye to our little baby at 12 weeks 5 days.
I am not going to get into feelings or emotions an I am also not going to get into what we have been through this week. I would never want to do it again and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. No one should have to take medication to put there bodies into labor at 13 weeks and deliver your baby. NO ONE.
I don't have a lot to say on losing our baby, I know that I will one day just not right now.

Hopefully this will not be my last post but no promises, we will have to see what happens.

things to say

I really do have a lot of stuff to say, from my work to new disciplines I am studying, things we did over Christmas, our trip to Las Vegas and many other things. Biggest problem I have little to no time to blog and when I do have time I want to sit on my rear end and watch t.v.

I don't know if anyone is reading but I will come back.

Hope everyone had a great Christmas and a happy new year.

Curious Minds

Just a quick post as I should be in bed. This is for anyone who might be remotely curious about what I do at the gym sometimes for hours on end, until my joints hurt and my feet don't want to support my body anymore ( sorry it is release week and I am swamped).

Who knows if my career as a fitness Instructor just doesn't do it for me in the next couple years, maybe I will try the circus.
I am prepping for my NewBody certification video that I am filming on Monday, October 13. I will blog again with an update very soon after that, for right now I have a one track mind and that is how it is going to stay.
Off to bed with an ice pack...fun filled Saturday night :)

New Stage

I have just recently started a new journey in my career as a fitness instructor.
I have been teaching for almost 6 months now and I am just getting my feet wet. Last Friday I completed my NewBody training, NewBody is a program exclusive to Goodlife Fitness. Training was difficult to say the least, I spent 12 hours in the gym and most of the time we were moving. NewBody is my first discipline that I am training for. In the next couple weeks I will be flying to Toronto for a weekend of Attack training and a weekend of combat training. These trainings are so intense that you don't eat all weekend and you live off of power aid or some other supplement drink. I am totally physiced for the Attack training, it is so up my ally. Attack is super high cardio, I wore my heart rate monitor last week to class and worked so hard that I took my body from a aerobic workout to an anaerobic workout. Anaerobic doesn't burn as many calories but builds muscle, it all has to do with your heart rate. At one point my heart rate was at 101 % ( which is possible, it means that for my age and size my peak heart rate is 190 beats per minute, I was above that for a time being).

Going back to NewBody, I don't think anyone realizes what fitness instructors do to get ready for there classes. I am in the process of getting my video ready to become totally certified. I eat, sleep and breath NewBody right now. I team teach as many classes as I possibly can and have spent countless hours in front of the video at home.
A couple nights ago I woke Evan at 2:00 a.m. just to practice, lets just say he wasn't to happy with me at the time.
All I think about is NewBody, which is good at the moment but it worries me for the next couple weeks. My Attack and combat training are only two weeks apart and they are far more intense then the NewBody training.
At this time I am also running a skipping program on Friday evenings and I teach anywhere from 4-8 time per week, starting to feel stretched a little thin.
At the moment I am thinking about dropping the skipping program and just focusing on my disciplines at least until after Christmas.

I don't think this post is going anywhere I just needed to write and get things out of my head. It is also midnight and I am team teaching tomorrow morning so have about an hour of work to do yet tonight.

I love my job and wouldn't ever want to change anything, I need to figure out how to structure my life better. My family has eaten out for the last 3 night because I haven't had time to cook. We pride ourselves on eating healthy so this week has been a huge blow. My house also looks like a bomb went off in it, no time to clean and when Evan gets home in the evening I leave and he takes care of the kids. Evan works extremely hard at his job and I totally understand why all he wants to do is lay down on the couch.
If anyone has any suggestions about how to better stream line my house please let me know, I am open to anything right now.