Standing in line waiting to go in with the teacher ( above)
Many times I have caught myself wondering if my life is turning out the way I wanted it to. Did I want to have kids young, did/do I want to be a stay at home mom, am I married to the man of my dreams, did I want to live in Calgary, am I happy as a fitness instructor.
I don't have all the answers for the way my life is turning out but I would never take anything back good or bad. As a adult you need to learn to deal with what you have been given and make the best of it. So much that happens in life is out of our control and in God's hands, and I would not want it any other way.
We do have choices in our life though, I feel like I am struggling with many of those choices right now.
I know that I made the right choice to start working as a fitness instructor, I am a happier person and a better mom. I knew before I had kids that I wanted to work after the first year and I took on small jobs here and there. I was never fulfilled still, I felt smothered and resentful towards my family. Now that I am with Goodlife I am gone approximately 16 hours per week, that is not even like working 3 full days and I have never been happier. Because I am happier my family is happier, I am healthier and way more confident.
Starting to work has brought on more choices with my life, do I want to work more, am I over doing it, do I need to give my body a rest, etc.
I am so happy as a fitness instructor but wasn't prepared for everything that goes along with it. Some weeks depending on how much I teach I am taking pain killers just to get through the next class then there are weeks that I don't teach very much at all and I feel like I need to get in to the gym to get a hard workout.
Another issue is body image, I am a great weight and healthy but deep inside I feel like it isn't enough, I can lose a couple more pounds, teach a couple more cardio classes or run a couple more miles. This isn't an issue that I am alone in, it is through out the entire fitness industry.
* please don't judge me, I just need to be honest. I would love to hear your comments, please keep them kind.
update on Emmanuel starting school.
Emmanuel is one his 2 full week of school and is loving it. He has adjusted so well to going to school every morning. This morning when I walked him to the school he took off running to his friends on the play ground and only came back to where I was standing to get his backpack. After he got his backpack he went and lined up and didn't look back.
When I go and pick him up from school he walks out of the doors gives his teacher a high-five throws me his backpack and takes off running with 4 other kindergarten boys. This group is inseparable, so cute.
Hopefully I can post some pictures in a couple days of his first day at kindergarten.
Micah is also loving her mornings at home. We are home Monday, Thursday and Friday morning. The other mornings I am teaching so Micah is in play group. We have spent many hours coloring, playing barbies and painting her nails, she is such a little girl.
I just found the best heart rate monitor on line today. My mentor at the gym also works for Sport Check as a writer and she lead me in the right direction.
I am starting a class in two weeks, it is a skipping class. I have been told that if you skip for 1 hour you will burn 1000 calories but we wont be skipping for a full hour so I want to be able to say we just burnt xxxx calories in one hour skipping, running and boxing.
This heart rate monitor counts calories, keeps track of your heart rate, counts laps and so much more. these things are totally awesome.
So much more has happened in life including Emmanuel going to Kindergarten and me starting some new classes. I am also heading out for more training in the next couple weeks so I will be busy.
I am going to be starting a moms and babies fitness class in October, this class totally rules. It will be done with the babies in Snuggli's and well as floor work.
I just need to find a snuggli and something that replicates a baby ( don't look at my uterus... nothing is coming out of there anytime soon)!
Will post more soon, off to by me the heart rate monitor.
So I have decided that after 4 weeks of silence it is time to post again. Summer is coming to a close and it has been way to short.
My parents came out for 10 days in visit, we did a lot of sight seeing, hanging out a home and playing with the kids. My mom even got to see me teach a class or two so that was awesome. We also had Micah's third birthday party ( my babies are growing up, more about that later).
Micah's special chair
The cupcakes I made from scratch ( so proud!)
We have also spent a lot of time at the lake which has been way more fun this year than any other, I think that is because the kids are older and able to do more for them selves.
We have also had company over the summer keeping us hoping!
I was able to fly out to Winnipeg recently and spend two days with my family as well as Josh and Holly's new baby. While in Manitoba I caught Strep throat which put me out of commission for about 6 days, not ideal when you are a fitness instructor! My first class back I didn't think I would actually make it through.
That is all for now, my mind is consumed with the fact that Emmanuel is headed to kindergarten on Tuesday!
Hopefully will post more in depth later, not holding my breath though.
I thought I would give an update on how things went on Saturday. I took until about now to be able to actually form into words what I felt and saw that morning at the walk for the cure.
We arrived at the Round up Center in Calgary at about 6:25 a.m thinking we would have time to run though a few things before we started. It took forever to find the right person to talk to and when we did find her she was so busy she pointed in the direction of the "stage" and ran off again.
We found someone else and asked where to set up our music and that is when they informed us that we couldn't use our own music they had some pre-selected, huge blow!
After everything was figured out and it was time to go on, we were terrified. The stage was very small and very high up, we didn't hear the music until we were standing on the stage so we had no idea how fast it was or how many beats per minute it was ( that is huge for a fitness Instructor), and we had no idea what we were going to do because the routine was to our music so we wung it.
It turned out amazing, we had one girl figuring out what to do and the rest followed. Everything that possible felt like it was going wrong was all washed away when you looked out into a sea of a thousand smiling faces and remembered that reason we were there.
At one point we were doing a side step movement and all I could see was a mass of pink moving from side to side, It took all my will power to hold it together at that moment. Between all the people in pink, the music, seeing runners carrying the running shoes of runners from past years who have past away, and the genuine energy it was so over whelming but perfect.
My parents are out for the week so I will post more next week.
I have been given probably what I consider the greatest opportunity, Calgary has the walk for the cure this weekend. It is a 60 km walk for Breast Cancer, the participants walk 35 km on Saturday and do the remaining 25 on Sunday. Goodlife Fitness has been asked to be in Charge of warming up the participants on Saturday morning. Myself along with 3 of the other instructors will be heading to the Round up center for 6:30 a.m to lead a mass of people in a warm up.
When I found out I was going to be involved I was speechless, I feel so blessed and honored to be involved in such an event.
God has been doing so much wonderful things in my life, I have spent the last day just thanking him because I feel like I have no words to express how I truly feel.
I feel like I have the opportunity to use my passion for encourage and help others, I never want to look past that or lose it.
Hope everyone enjoys there weekend.
I will come out and say it, I am boring and have nothing of importance to say.
Do I bore everyone out of there minds talking about my job at the gym, what classes I am teaching and what percent body fat I am at? I already have very few readers left I think that would scare away the rest.
I hope everyone is enjoying there summer, and I promise that I will be returning so please don't stop checking just give me a week or so.
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